I feel like I should post, and more importantly post something of substance, but I don't know what. I'm in staggering amounts of pain all over. Just the tension of getting through yesterday has caused all kinds of aching everywhere. And
tired, dear gods the tired. And it's the kind of too-tired, where if I try to relax I feel leaden and exhausted but also jittery. I can't sleep for wanting to get up and run around, but I can't get up for exhaustion, so I just lie there twitching and occasionally have seizures.
Well, here's an article about the Oxfrod juggling study...
http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases/2009/10/091016114055.htmI feel a little bit homesick but I'm not well enough to come out of hiding yet. I think I haven't been home in about three or four weeks and there's still a glassy wall of screaming around any serious thoughts of going back. Fortunately I have a weirdly copious amount of clean underwear and spare clothes. I'm not sure how that happened in the bigger picture because I didn't take this many clothes with me, mainly just a few changes of undies, because I thought I'd only be a couple of days. So that's kind of strange, but at least I haven't been wearing the same clothes for a month.
I think I am about to have another tooth breakage. I'm back to chewing on one side of my face til it does. It actually hurts more while it's breaking than it does once it's broken, once the chunk comes out it is almost painless. So damn sick of this. I wish I could afford a real dentist, instead of this dental hospital crap. It's all made worse, I'm sure, by the fact that I clench my teeth a lot. More now than previously, the medication has made it worse, but in any case, grinding and clenching are the sort of things dentists are SUPPOSED TO NOTICE.
I'm smoking less. That's quite good. More to the point, I'm wanting less to smoke, I'm just forgetting to do it.
I've been thinking about buying a PS2, because they're really cheap now. Then on Thursday night Caine came round with his, completely unprompted. He left it here & said we could use it. Good trick, that.