New story coagulating. It's a big one.
Reading By Moonlight is still grinding along in fits and starts, and I'm grateful that I'm under no particular pressure to finish any of these lengthy tales in a specific timeframe. After reading
greygirlbeast's blog too long I don't think that's where I want to be right now. Yes, I write. Yes, I want to write. No, I don't think I want to be in a place of
having to write, year in, year out, whether I feel like it or not, forcing myself through story upon story because my living depends on it. Not now.
Anyway. A new story. Two of them perhaps, mirrors, different windows onto the same event. They will be separate narratives, and probably kept that way, rather than merged into a single story from alternating angles. But these things never go as I think they will.
Reading By Moonlight isn't. I thought it was a story I've been wanting to tell for ten-ish years, and it quickly turned out to be something entirely different. That story is still hanging about in the wings. This new one isn't it, but it still has similarities. No, that's wrong. It has commonalities.
There is a longicorn beetle on the TV unit. I think it wandered in to get out of the rain a few days ago. They do that here, this isn't the first. Little ones, though for all I know this may be the same one from several months ago. I do hope it's not an indication that the house is rotting. Longicorns like damp, rotting wood. They have big mandibles for crunching it down. They're splendid and sort of intimidating-looking yet totally harmless and good-natured. I've never met a mean longicorn, though truth to tell I've not met many.
It's wiggling its antennae around wildly, and just took flight for a few moments. The back door is wide open, I hope it can find its way out. I don't want to harm it in a rescue attempt. I worry about breaking one of its splendid long antennae. It seems quite fond of the cornice, and I worry again that the house might be rotting. It won't be my problem if the house
is rotting because they've more or less told us we're to leave in January. Not a great time to move, but move we must. Straight after Christmas and Woodford, not sure how they think three students will be able to afford to move in January, but realistically I don't think they actually care.
Damien Hirst distresses me. Not in a groovy, challenges my boundaries, provocative art way. In a ponies in vats of formaldehyde is just horrible way.
NSP: Rights, does anybody know their rights? You see, I’ve learned something today. Our forefathers came to this country because they believed in an idea, an idea called freedom. They wanted to leave in a place where you couldn’t be prosecuted for your beliefs – where a person could live the way he chooses to live. You see us as being perverted because we’re different from you; people are afraid of us because they don’t understand, and sometimes it’s easier to persecute than to understand.
Kyle: Dude, you have sex with children.
NSP: We are human. Most of us didn’t even choose to be attracted to young boys. We were born that way. We can’t help the way we are and if you all can’t understand that, well, then, I guess you’ll just have to put us away.
Kyle: Dude! You have SEX with CHILDREN.
Stan: Yeah, you know we believe in equality for everybody and tolerance and all that gay stuff, but dude, fuck you.
I'm sure that whole South Park quote could be rewritten about art and putting ponies in vats of formaldehyde, but as if I'm doing that. You get the idea. I believe in artistic freedom and edginess and pushing boundaries and challenging people with your art and all that gay stuff, but dude, fuck you. You kill ponies.